I have just
been to heaven.
If it wasn’t
heaven it was as close as I will get this side of it. I went “Home” to a little
town in the middle of nowhere called Wolcott Indiana.
When Kevin
Coster’s character, Ray Kinsella, is asked if he is in heaven
while standing on a baseball field out in the middle of a corn field in the
movie Field of Dreams; he replies in a dry response, “No, it’s Iowa.” This is truly
how I felt when I took a few days to load my family up in the van and go “Home”
to the place where I grew up.
Home can feel very much like heaven and in
some respects and I experienced that feeling when I took several days “Off”
from routine last week to go and see my family and just get lost for a bit in
familiar faces and places from my past.
Something happens to me out there in that
farmland that absolutely stirs everything within me, and as I drove down
familiar roads from my childhood I was bombarded with memories. I was almost
able to see myself as a young boy pedaling my bike as fast as I could make it
go down those cracked roads that blistered in the summer heat. I could hear the
tar sticking and slapping from the bike tires back onto the pavement and hear
the rustled cries of wind passing through the corn stalks from the endless
cornfields that lined the road as I readjusted the B.B gun on my back in
preparation for my older brother’s ambush in the bend of road up ahead.
I could almost see my old dog, a German
shepherd mix named Lady, who was my staunchest supporter and most trusted
confidant while sitting beside me in the field behind our house as the evenings
crept into place, just listening to me talk about everything that could find
its way onto a young boy’s heart and mind.
G.I.Joes, Ninja Turtles, and army stuff were
the consuming part of my life as a boy and it seemed as if there was always
some fantasy “bad guy” lurking around our farm that needed my expertly honed
ninja skills and homemade weapons to defeat.
Being surrounded by open fields with
absolutely nothing but open land as far as the eye could see and in some places
without even a phone signal just lifted my spirits to the peak and as I drove I
found myself wishing that time would just stop completely for a while and I
could stay there.
You hear people compare arriving to heaven in
the parallel of a beach or a shoreline surrounding an island type of setting. I
see an old road out in the country that leads its way through freshly mowed
fields to a brightly lit farm house where my heavenly Dad is waiting on the
front porch to meet me.
I think what I enjoyed the most about being
in that environment were the many times you could just walk down the road and
realize that at exactly that moment, there was not a soul on earth that knew
where you were. It was a very powerful feeling to feel so small and for that
moment be in the full realization that life was in fact not about you. It seems
like this is something that each of us struggle with on a daily basis and the
thought that the world revolves around us is one that is so easy to entertain.
We make tend to make everything about us
don’t we? Even within the church we do this and I do not believe that it is
intentional. I think that it happens just because we struggle with flesh and we
are so busy looking for the big giants in our life that we, like the children
of Israel, slay the giants in the land but miss the fact that we allow the
“Amorites and Hittites and Amalekites of self to live”. We knock out the big
name enemies of our walk in the Spirit, but miss the little ones that keep us
defeated and in bondage.
I like the way David puts it when he had a
little time to reflect on where he stood in relation to the God of the
universe.
"When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained; What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?" ~Psalms 8:3-4
How many times did that thought pass through
my mind as I walked those roads near our house growing up is beyond me. Just
the feeling that God was so big and that I was so small was an amazing feeling.
God referred to that a lot in the Old
Testament when dealing with some of His kids. He used the phrase, “When
thou wast small in thine own sight…”
I guess today, before it really gets thick out
there and all of the distractions hit you as fast and as furious as they no
doubt will, I would like to invite you to just take a walk in your mind down a
road very much like the one that I have pictured here and just take a minute to
remember where you stand before a Holy and all-consuming God. Think about how
small you are and how small the things that you face and will face stand next
to His amazingly powerful and massive throne. Then stop right where you are
walking and remember that He, in all of His majesty and splendor, is MINDFUL of
you.
Life isn’t really about you and it really
isn’t about me. It is about Him. It always was and it always will be. You and I
were created from the very beginning to be in the presence of God. Take some
time out on your “walk” and just enjoy being able , through the sacrifice of
His Son Jesus, to be in His presence and know that His mind is fixed on you!
Climbing with you,
~Dan
Awesome!
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